When i read a newspaper today, (sunday star) there's a huge column of chocolate and suddenly it becomes clear in my mind that cocoa beans had a very big impact in my life.. I am very much attached with this type of bean just after graduated. Being offered by one the most recognised lecturer to futher my studies (second degree) it didn't take me long to accept it. Due to my good result in my first degree, i'm very confident that this the best choice..
However...jeng jeng jeng! It did not turned right! I think, i've chosen the wrong field.. Cocoa flavoured has been studied by manys.. but my objectives is to enhance the flavoured by adding some new substance in it. I seems easy when you plan it on paper.. the truth is, it's a disaster..
I've tried and tried.. hundred times, but failed to get good result, i'm a part time tutor then. Two years gone.. bye bye! I felt terrible, since my collegues who chose to become a teacher and other carreer, already had a steady life..
That is my turning point. Deciding to change my all time ambition to be a lecturer into becoming a teacher.. It was my biggest desicion of all... i feel very sad at first, it;s like there's a hollow in my
chest.. but i was strong! I put all positives thinking in my mind about my new carreer to be, that is : A teacher..
20 yrs gone by.. i am, what i am today.. and sometimes, it still crossed my mind "' Why did i choose the project (cocoa) , what if i choose other than that particular project, am i going to sucessfully becoming a lecturer??" I know we could never question whatever happened in our lives. It is all in Allah's (the most merciful) hand. We should always be thankful and grateful for everything we have today and there must be "hikmah" behind it..
Syukurr.. Alhamdulillahhh...
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